Bedtime struggle...

Last nite, i scolded my deardear very harshly. It was the 1st time i did that.

Since a few nites back, she's been very cranky during bedtime. Sometimes, i need up to 1.5hrs to coax her to sleep. It's very straining on me, especially after a long day's work.

What happened yesterday that got me so mad was that my deardear has literally fell asleep oredi, after about 30mins in bed... suddenly, she just flipped over n sat up, n pointed to the door, indicating that she wants to go out.

I was very mad because i know that deardear is very tired oredi and she still refuse to sleep, want to go out n play. I scolded her n carried her to the bedroom door, tell her mommi is going to stay in the room n she can go out on her own. Deardear cried loudly and walked back to me. I asked her whether she wants to sleep sleep, but she still point to the door. I repeated the process a few times, telling her everytime she can go out but mommi is staying in the room.

By that time, she's almost wailing. Alan came and tried to comfort deardear but i told him not to interfere as i'm trying to discipline her. The maid also appeared, but kena scolded by me.

I told deardear after she stop crying and wan to go sleep sleep, she can come to mommi. After a few minutes, deardear stopped crying n i went to carry her n soothe her to sleep...

打在儿身，痛在娘心。。。 but i feel that i need to discipline her now or else it will be more difficult to do so in the future...