Want or don't want???

Couple of days back, Alan told me that his mom asked him whether we want to have another baby. Alan told her maybe, we are still thinking about it. Mil then said it's better to have another one. I was quite surprised to hear that bcos I thought she didn't want to look after any more baby.

Hmmm... but i m still in a dilemma whether to have another baby. Lots of concern - finances is the major one. Another worry is to go through the whole cycle again, not the pregnancy cycle, but the 1st year cycle. Those who know me will know that I had a real tough 1st to 4th months' after giving birth to Ashley. I shudder even now when i think back.

Another concern that I have is whether i will grow fat... hahaha... vainpot! that's me!!